I really feel like I’ve woken up looking through another person’s eyes. I’ve been down today, really down. In fact, I’ve kind of not cared about a single thing that happened today except for the offloading of several cases of beer and many bottles of wine to the “new” event planners at work. Buhbye wine and beer that take up storage space in my office. It’s been nice knowing you.
I’m not sure why I’ve been down but I’m not seeing the positive in things today. I’m sure it’s a combination of things.
It might be that for well over a month I had been looking forward to my time off of work that I could spend relaxing in my PJs with my sweet boy. Due to unforseen circumstances, it looks like I’ll be seeing his backside while he’s walking out of the room to play video games with his best friend and his nephew all week. I’m not complaining that he gets to see them, I’m just dissapointed that I won’t.
Tonight kind of topped it all off when my favorite vintage service platter shattered (not at my hands, which kind of makes it worse). I’ve looked all over Etsy and Ebay and I can’t find another one. When I mentioned to the sweet boy that his breaking it meant he had to go flea market shopping with me to find it, he sounded less than thrilled. He used to at least fake that he liked going.
It’s not only that I feel down, I don’t want to list new things on Etsy, I don’t want to photograph my lovely yarn, or spin my even lovlier wool. I just want to go sit in bed and read. I hate feeling like this and hope to snap out of it soon so I’ll be ready to sit and think about New Year’s resolutions, shop updates for the new year, future spring cleaning (I’m a nerd and like spring cleaning), winter planning for my summer garden, and so on. I’ve only got 6 more days off of work and I need to spend those days happy, not in a funk.
Send me good thoughts, crafty and uplifting thoughts. I need them!
Now, to drink some coffee and then go to bed (coffee has no effect on me).
The picture above was taken a couple of years ago during some snow (or maybe just last year, I’ve lost track). The picture kind of puts into an image how I feel but I also think that the scenery there would brighten my mood if only I could look out my front window and see that.